Updated: Nov 9, 2020
On the bay I watched the sky break heavy clouds of grey
Into a chasm of kind blue which shone through
And smiled at me as you do
When your smile breaks your cheeks like sunlight.
There in the heavy Pre-Raphaelite image
Tranquillity’s soft eyes assured me of a gentle touch;
One I had been longing too much to feel, yours,
And so, I turned my eyes to the blackness of the water
To see something of myself in it.
The lights were too painful to stare at in reflection
For they reminded me all of exploration;
City light, rooftop dancing, the waltz of your eyelashes
Came to me in a mellowed blur so that my blearing eyes
Cried gladly but painfully at the absence marked by light.
Darkness. It’s succulent antithesis;
She whispered to me the recesses of your body
So that I knew no city was worth the streets of your soul.
I watched the lights dance incandescence beneath me
And only wished the sea would set ablaze
For only then it would know the pangs of my heart
Whose dewy marshes were charred and all asunder.
Under the surface we know not what lurks;
I had given you my depths and now I was reminded of it,
Staring into the black steel water of metallic sheen
Whose buoyancy was too ironic to bear.
We had sunk long ago, but the buoyancy shimmered
And smiled at me to say: “You must stay afloat”.
The boats bobbed like your breath when you sleep -
Up and down - like the silhouette of a chest at night.
The air smelt like metal and salt.
You had too. The iron of your blood that pumped,
That spilt in your blushed cheeks.
The salt of your tears on my tongue when
From your eyes
Black steel; my iron liquid, that was you;
All metallic haemoglobin and soul
Whose liquids flooded me and beat me to a pulp.
I wished in that moment to drown there
As I had done in you.
But it was just the sky, the sea
Someone else with me, so I smiled at her
And walked on as the sea groaned despair.
I hadn’t realised the sky too cried when I turned away
And that you had smiled at me all the while
As I stood in tears on the steel-sea bay.
Based off the image above.